silverfxck

the weekend

2006-01-09T04:45:59Z

So when I was at home this weekend... I went out with my brother in Greenville on friday night with his friend. We went to Danny's Too and then to the New Englander. All in all I probably had like 6-7 drinks. Well, when I pulled out of the New Englander around 1:30am, I got pulled over on main st about a mile down the road. Sweeeeeet.

So, I really wasnt fretting at all. For some reason I was really calm. So the officer walks up... asks me if I know why he pulled me over. I said no, and thats when he let me know that I was going the wrong way down a one way street. oops. i still don't understand where it was, it had to have been one of those really tiny one way streets, oh well. so he asks me how much ive had to drink. "i've had 3 drinks, sir", i replied. he says ok, and goes back and checks out my license/registration. he comes back and says, "would you please step out of the car. we'd like to do some sobriety tests on the sidewalk here". so there i am, on the busiest street in greenville, at a red light none the less, doing sobriety tests on the side. first i had to follow a light with my eyes without moving my head. then i did the 9 steps, one foot in front of the other then turn and walk back. the worst was having to stand on my left foot with my right foot 6 inches above the ground and count to 60 saying "one one thousand, two one thousand, three one thousand, etc"; this is even hard when you are sober...

But anyways, I owned those tests and he told me I could get back into my car (also note by now 3 other police officers had arrived). He hands me my license and registration and tells me "ok, you are good to go. be careful driving home". so i shook his hand and said, "thank you very much, you guys are doing a great job!". i realized after i said that it may have sounded bad, but i was being really serious heh. It just made me think that if I was really raging drunk and unfit to drive that they would have saved either my life or the life of someone else. So yeah...

Quite the experience. I have the best luck with the police when I'm pulled over.

Steelers ruled today. Here are my playoff predictions:

Steelers vs Colts = Steelers Win
Steelers vs Patriots = Steelers Win (oh sweet revenge)
Steelers vs Bears in the Super Bowl = Steelers Win

Simple as that!

silverfxck @ 2006-01-07T02:16:00

2006-01-07T07:17:32Z

kudos to the greenville police, they are doing a good job!

more on this later... i need sleep, i need to drive to pittsburgh in the morning to work.

!!@#$%^#$

2005-12-30T23:44:50Z

you know that part in the OC... season 2, when marissa is talking with her mother and she screams "do you REALLY want to know whats wrong with me? REALLY?!" and she just starts screaming her lungs out and throws chairs and other pool accessories into the pool?

yeah, that's how i feel right now.

so i think im just going to pick up and drive to toronto by myself early tomorrow morning... havent decided yet. but i'm leaning towards yes, because leaving this country would be nice right about now.

fuck people whose only communication to you is patronizing, snide comments for the past 3 days of work and when you finally sit them down to speak to them about them, they completely puss out and say "oh i was only joking!".

fuck that, grow up. your mouth isnt the only part of the body that speaks. dont avoid confrontation and just talk to me to figure out where you are obviously misunderstanding any actions of my own that you are so offended of.

although i should take my own advice, i can be the king of avoiding confrontation at times.

this on top of everything else on my mind is just stressing me the hell out. im not supposed to be stressed out after christmas, COME ON.

as if i didnt drink enough on xmas and what i can only guess i will on new years...

2005-12-30T02:27:06Z

i will be home Thursday, Jan. 12th for the Frostbite Footrace. I called off friday.

it's on.

really, really good song.

2005-12-28T04:41:31Z

James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

and they say to themselves, how can i ever let this happen

2005-12-26T17:57:37Z

hope everyone had a great christmas, because i sure did. two good nights of family functions, kinda got to know heather's extended family this year which was nice; i feel more comfortable now. which is good, since im shooting for "best uncle ever".

pretty much all my gifts were for my apt. got a popazan from my folks... dreams do come true! also got a cool cabinet to hang on my wall, has a very "olive garden-esque" painting of a couple wine bottles on it. the mom got me a couple new pillows for my couch. and a sweater. yeah my brother warned me that once you move out the only gifts you get are home-related gifts. thats cool though, i NEEDED a popazan, and i dont really need anything else.

it was really nice to see all of my friends, and i do mean ALL of my friends. i was really surpised at how many old faces i saw and how effortlessly it all came together. i got a bunch of pictures, i'll post them up on a website soon once i have time.

i think i might have this year figured out... and i think i know how i need to go into 2006. ive never been much into new years resolutions but this time its different. id like to drink a little bit less (wish me luck!). im going to start reading again, and especially get back to studying anything audio related; my learning shouldn't end with college. id like to get back to new england. i believe its where i am supposed to be. after two failed attempts at dating & relationships this fall/winter, i am not trying to find someone new. its become kind of pointless. instead i will put my love into life and let its current take me to where i need to be. and most importantly... i still need to clean out the raspberry pie leftovers out of my oven.

alone in a sea of faces

2005-12-24T05:03:33Z

Ok so the christmas party wasn't as big of a turnout as I expected. No one from back home made it down :( So it was just the usual pittsburgh crew but it was fun, relaxing. I haven't had people over in awhile and i always enjoy entertaining...

The highlights of the night were probably when I dropped the pie in the oven...

And playing Scategories and using people's name such as "Chuck Norris" and "Notorious B.I.G.".

Its funny, throughout December I was really excited about Christmas, I have been listening to christmas music like non-stop, but as it draws closer i'm becoming very depressed. I guess i'm just comparing it to last year's... i was pretty happy then, and the new year held a lot of promise i suppose. i can't believe another year has gone by. life is moving very fast for me right now. but anyways, im just looking forward to spending time with the family tomorrow, cant wait to see the lil ones, hannah and ella. i bought abby "her first pooh bear". im becoming a pro at shopping for little girls. i still refuse to by the trashy bratz dolls. the "bratz world" series are the best. last year i bought hannah the chinese one, and this year it was the japanese one. they dress much cooler and not as slutty. only in america.

bedtime for me now, working 6am - noon tomorrow for xmas eve, which im very happy with. should be back in the valley by 3. from what i hear theres a "private" party at the nittany; oh shit, that reminds me. i gotta make johnny a copy of filter's take my picture. he will kill me if i show up there without it! thank you livejournal, for bringing my own thoughts to my attention!

p.s. -- that raspberry pie was still fuckin goooooooooood. be jealous of my pie making skills.

merry freaking christmas

2005-12-22T07:42:39Z

merry freaking christmas, livejournal. i hate retail holidays. for the solid 4-5 hours i was on a register tonight i was screaming "I MUST FIND A BETTER CAREER-ORIENTED JOB AND GET OUT OF THIS RETAIL HELL FOREVER!" over and over and over again. This is resolution #1.

so tomorrow is my christmas party. im really going all out. i just got "christmas vacation" and the grinch cartoon in the mail from netflix to watch. ive lined the perimeters of my ceilings with multi-colored lights. ive got crab dip, two different kinds of pie, a bunch of pizza rolls, a case of yuengling, vodka, whiskeyyyyy. i've invited too many people than what my apartment can probably confortably hold, but i dont think everyone i invited is coming. surprisingly more people from back home are coming down. dart tourney, foosball playing.

well anyways, i hope everyone has a nice holiday. i cant wait to eat ham and exotic meats at my uncle's on xmas eve. he told me he ordered 200+ snails direct from greece and spent like over $300. wtf? only my uncle... i can only hope to be that crazy of an uncle someday. oh and speaking of me being an uncle, abby is doing great, gets freaking cuter everytime i see her. she was baptised last weekend. reminded me why i dont usually attend church services. i was actually thinking about finding a church around here to go to, but no... not a good idea.

all the best,
-barrett

FYI

2005-11-13T20:37:56Z

For all things Barrett, please refer to my space.

so i moved...

2005-10-15T00:45:03Z

For anyone who doesn't know.. I know longer live in the shenango valley.

This is my second week at my new apartment in Carnegie, right outside of Pittsburgh. I got transfered/promoted to the FYE at the Robinson Mall. It's a really nice one bedroom with brand new carpeting, kitchen cabinets, and bathroom sink/cabinet combo. Exciting, huh?

It's in a really nice area. There is a elementary school football field right behind me. Wednesdays and Fridays are usually game time. If you ever want to come hang out and do shots of whiskey when they score touchdowns, that'd be cool!

The place is still sort of bare and undecorated. I've got my dartboard, a foosball table, a subscription to scientific american mind & pastel mints (i thought it'd be funny) on the coffee table, a big long framed picture of boston, and an old "its a lovely day for a guinness" poster that i bought in seattle last weekend (as i hung out with CHRIS FRISHKORN and his wife Beth all day, can you believe it?!).

Wow, these people sure make a lot of noise for an elementary game.

Comcast cable internet is pretty sweet and fast with blazing speeds; sometimes my modem emits flames.

I really like this place because:

1. It's 15 minutes from work; not 55.
2. It's 15 minutes from the southside/downtown
3. I'm on my own.

So, I guess I'm doing okay with myself. I'm just glad that I actually went through with this after I abruptly decided to set course to transfer down here, for whatever reason. Well, I know why, but that's another story.. I'm busy all the time, working 40+ and I'm also taking an online class. Why on earth I did it so soon, I don't know, but I wanted to test out the online class experience to see if i'd like to do more online classes in the future to work on another degree maybe. Have shows the next couple weekends... San Fran next weekend then Toronto for a big halloween themed jam.

The FYE @ Robinson is good. It's the nicest FYE ive ever seen, and the staff is very good. The store manager is awesome, to be honest he comes close to being just as awaesome as Dan based on this first weeks impressions.

silverfxck @ 2005-09-28T01:59:00

2005-09-28T06:11:10Z

a lot of things happened today.

1. i found an apartment in carnegie which i'll probably be moving into next week
2. getting a raise i think
3. my district manager gave me all of next week off to move to my new place. i have a show in seattle next weekend too, sweet.
3. sorta became a product rep for Izotope (software company i interned at in boston) for the Pittsburgh area. they are going to buy me a laptop to demo products at stores.
4. collectively throughout the day i've eaten a total of 6 chili cheese dogs.
5. played some pool
6. i drank a bit (duh)

all in all, pretty good day.

i wanna see corpse bride real ultra bad, and maybe flight plan. and "the fog" and especially saw 2 when they come out. i saw the fog preview when i went to see the exorcism of emily rose (really creepy), it looked crazy.

oh and i watched crash last night, fell asleep halfway through, wasnt really impressed.

abigail

2005-09-27T04:22:01Z

we are dancing invisible

2005-09-26T16:47:00Z

I have a whole bunch of Matthew Good Band, but somehow I completely neglected to listen to this one song. It's fucking fantastic.

CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD IT

Matthew Good Band - Dancing Invisible

it started out like everything else, I guess
you are what you are until suddenly you're like all the rest
I looked out over the bay at the water and the lights
I noticed we had gone to great lengths but not to great heights
the bus ride to meet you here took me half my life
and although the days were clear we drove that night
I sat next to a woman who moved to the memory of effigy
and I tried to sing along but she couldn't hear me

we are dancing invisible
there are small things the day brings
like cut strings that we never pull
and after tonight when these things fade from sight
I might get you through
maybe you know me now but it's strange somehow
if I'm lost too

maybe you know me now but it's strange somehow
if I'm lost too

lights split the window and the wind blew me away
and the sun scraped the distance like an acceptable mistake
I stared at the road signs and the possibilities they'd take me

away from you
its funny but in this place its the only thing that you can hear
those far distant echoes that blow through only to disappear
when the rain drops and the bus stops and the coast is clear
and I feel you're near

I will break it again

I will break it again

I will break it again

we are dancing invisible
there are small things the day brings
like cut strings that we never pull
and after tonight when these things fade from sight
I might get you through
maybe you know me now but it's strange somehow
if I'm lost too

maybe you know me now but it's strange somehow
if I'm lost

it all ends up like everything else, I guess
you are what you are
you do what you do
and you get what you get
somewhere short of regret
I looked out over the bay at the water and the lights
and I noticed we had gone to great lengths but not to great heights
and only the crier cries at the break of dawn
I stood boxing my shadow thinking how to get along
so to yourself or another man to who you belong
when there's nothing left to fight is it easier to be right
when you know you're wrong

you are dancing invisible
there are small things the day brings
like cut strings that we never pull
and after tonight when these things fade from sight
I might get you through
maybe you know me now but it's strange somehow
if I'm lost too

maybe you know me now but it's strange somehow
if I'm lost too

-------------------

A brief update on what I've been up to:

I work ALL the time. I've been at the Beaver Valley Mall FYE as Asst. Manager filling in for a girl who was on maternity leave. She comes back this Saturday, so this friday is my last day. I am then transferring to the Robinson Mall store as a 2nd Assistant i think? So I'm apartment hunting tomorrow in the northwest pittsburgh area.

And while this is happening, I am getting a call from Mark from Izotope, the place I interned with in Cambridge when I was in school, about a possible future job opportunity. Awesome timing! So I need to find the shortest apartment lease as possible.

And since I work all the time, I hardly remember that I usually would write music. Oh well, I'll get back to it sometime. My life for the past few months has been... extremely confusing. I'm a chicken with its head cut off.

love at first sight...

2005-09-25T04:18:17Z

I fell in love with a girl today. Abigail Jean Busch, born 11:54 on September 23rd. You can call me Uncle Barrett.

I'll post pictures soon.

silverfxck @ 2005-09-09T19:17:00

2005-09-09T23:22:32Z

Click here to download Imogen Heap - Hide & Seek

I feel like I just woke up from a 2 month coma, and someone filled in for me and when I came to all I can say is, "What the fuck?"

I haven't been myself..

what the hell is going on?

2005-09-08T16:09:42Z

I haven't been this affected by a song since Something Corporate's "Konstantine". I suggest this song to everybody.

Imogen Heap - Hide & Seek

where are we? what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just began to fall
crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling
spin me around again and rub my eyes
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people would stop to hold their heads heavy
hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years they were here first
oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before
the takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this
still alive
hide and seek
Trains and sewing machines? oh, you won't catch me around here
blood and tears
they were here first
Mmm, What'd you say? Mmm, That you only meant well
Well of course you did
Mmm, What'd you say? Mmm, That it's all for the best
Of course it is
Mmm, What'd you say? Mmm, That it's just what we need
You decided this
Mmm, What'd you say? Mmm... What did she say?
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cutouts
Speak no feeling, no, I don't believe you
You don't care a bit, you don't care a bit
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cutouts
Speak no feeling, no, I don't believe you
You don't care a bit, you don't care a bit
(You don't care a bit)
Oh, no, you don't care a bit
Oh, no, you don't care a bit
Uh-uh, you don't care a bit
You don't care a bit
You don't care a bit

O.C. fans may recognize this from the last episode of Season 2. Speaking of the OC, it starts tonight and all I have is like 3 basic channel cable. I need to find a place to watch it.

silverfxck @ 2005-07-23T01:25:00

2005-07-23T05:21:34Z